I am sure that most of you have heard the quote ,”Every saint has a past, and every sinner has a future.” I am pretty sure that we can all relate to that quote, and I am just going to tell you I am most definitely the saint with the past. For those of you who do not know me I am here to let you know that there is nothing special about me. I am just a small town girl with a passion for writing, and a passion for Mommas who may be struggling with postpartum depression, anxiety, fear, or anything to do with maintaining a healthy lifestyle both physically and mentally. I am here to let you know that you can, and you will get through this. I want to help you get through this, and I want you to know that there is hope, and there is a light at the end of this dark tunnel.
I come from a religious background, and at a young age I was not fond of the religion that I grew up in. We were called the Independent Fundamentalist, just another word for straight up crazy. My daddy was a preacher, and I had to abide by strict rules. I went to a church were grace didn’t exist, and was taught that the God I worshiped was a God that hated me, and could kill me at any second, if he wanted to, because who could love a sinner like me? I was taught that women wearing pants was immoral, and wearing makeup was trashy. I could only listen to certain music, and do certain things. At one point of my life even television was evil. I would have given anything to wear a pair of pants, watch Hannah Montana, or listen to a Taylor Swift song. So the older I got the more rebellious I became. I went against all of the principals that my parents taught me, and some I wish I would have listened to, because not everything my parents taught me was wrong. However, because I had been brainwashed I did not want to listen to any of their wisdom, and therefore I ended up pregnant with my precious baby Ivan Warren Watkins. I was not married, but thankfully I serve a God of second chances, and He did show me grace, and my husband who was only my boyfriend at the time was ecstatic when he found out, and was already planning on purposing to me that year.
Some of you are wondering what this blog is about. This is about my life as a young mom. I had seizures and complications during my pregnancy, but thankfully Ivan came into the world as healthy as he could possibly be. What was the scariest for me was that I was not prepared for the life changes that would happen once I became a mom. So that is why I decided to call this blog ,” Momma From Scratch,”. I would like to take my readers on this amazing journey with me, and I will be talking about various topics, from parenting to marriage and relationships, how to live a purpose filled life, wellness Etc. I want others to know especially moms or moms to be, that being a mom Isn’t just one label. There are a lot of labels to being a mom, and I want all of the amazing moms out there who are having an identity crisis to know that they are not alone. I have been there, and I just want to tell you that is not true. Being a mom is an amazing gift, but moms are not just moms; We are workers, we have meaningful relationships, we are the wives to our husbands, we are spiritual leaders, and we do have purpose and meaning in this life. If you do not feel this way I hope that one day you will, and that you will experience true joy. Please keep reading, and subscribe to my blog for more encouragement, and weekly posts.
Sincerely, Lauren Smith.