Dear Husband, I apologize for failing you as your wife. These last three months that you have been gone training to serve our country, I have had time to reflect on the wife that I have become. There are things that I have done that have hurt you, and I just need you to know that this is not the wife I want to be. So to begin with I want to say I’m sorry for using my words as a weapon against you. I realize that words can be powerful, and yet many times I have used them to discourage you rather then to build you up. Words can either bring life or death, and one too many times I have only brought destruction, but how easy it is, when something upsets me to spill words out without even thinking about what happens after I say those words. So today I want to change that. I want to start by encouraging you and bring the best out of you with my words. Second I want to stop putting pressure on you to meet my high expectations. I’m sorry, that when I took on this journey with you I thought I understood what I was saying, when I told you, “for better or for worst,” but in reality I thought that marriage was always going to be eating cake and laughter, so when the bills started pilling up, our child kept us up until 2AM, and you forgot to take out the trash my reaction proved that I didn’t truly mean the promise I made to you. Today I want to give God all of my expectations, and be grateful for the days when you did take the trash out for me. For the time I got sick, and you stopped working just to bring me Chicken Noodle Soup, and for the days that you cooked dinner for me, because you knew how tired I was as a young mother of a 3 month old boy. I want to cherish those moments, the beautiful and the ugly. Last of all I want to apologize for not protecting our marriage the way that God wants me too, and the way you need me too. Days get shorter, and so do my prayers for you. What God has given me I have taken for granted. So starting today I will pray for our marriage, and I will fight for us until my last breath. And when I look back on this day of reflection I want to be able to say, that I love you more then I did when I wrote this for you.
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