Four Things That Happened When God Re-defined My Mistakes

Four Things That Happened When God Re-defined My Mistakes

I’m honestly putting myself in a vulnerable position because of my story despite what you may think from knowing me and my past. I grew up in a picture perfect cookie cutter home, or at least that’s what I believed until I was about thirteen years old, and that’s when I discovered that no one is perfect. Although, my family had issues we had God in our lives, and that changes everything. I’m not here to judge anyone, or condemn anyone, because you see I used to be the person that felt so damaged and so broken, and I never thought that a God so rightous could love someone like me, and because of that I didn’t want anything to do with him. And because of that I did things my way. My way resulted in a major curveball when I found out I was pregnant. It hasn’t been easy being a young mom, while everyone around me gets to travel the world when they want to, and I can’t even go to the bathroom without my child coming with me. Despite the challenges, I may face the good outweighs the bad, and allowing God to re-define my wrong choices has led to feeling happy and complete. Here are four ways that changed my perspective on my mistakes.

1. I understood God’s Love for Me.

Once I got pregnant and in a steady relationship I began to lose friends left in right. After all, I wasn’t as cool as I used to be. I definitely couldn’t drink, and I also had the tendency to fall asleep for hours at a time. Laughing now that I’m thinking about the many naps that I took. I went through a serious postpartum depression at the beginning of my pregnancy and has honestly taken about a year to get through. My marriage was also new, and we had our ups and downs. Yet through all of the mess, I knew in my heart that God was there for me. When all else failed I knew He still cared. He loved me enough, and so much that He trust me with the ultimate responsibility to take care of a life that had been given to me. How awesome is that?

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2. He mended broken relationships.

As I mentioned before, many of the friends that I had been partying with before I got prego had slowly left my side. My husband and I were hanging on by a thread, and I knew that we had to surrender our will to God, and thankfully Stephen was on the same page as I was, and because of that our relationship with each other was restored. Another relationship that was restored was my relationship with my sister. That is a big freaking miracle because I never thought we would handle being in the same room together, and now she chooses to visit more than once a week. Like we don’t share a room together anymore, so she doesn’t have to but she wants to, and I know in my heart that God brought Ivan in my life for many reasons and one of them is to make us sisters again, and I am so thankful for that.

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3. He taught me how to love others.

Through all of this God has shown me so much grace, and I want to extend that grace to others. If God can redeem my story, then He is just as capable to redeem someone else’s. When I see someone who is broken, and they feel shame. I just want to hug them, and let them know that anything can be restored. I have learned that it’s okay to feel regret for a day or two, but we need to learn to forgive ourselves because God has already forgiven us. Regret and shame will not change things it just causes us to live in the past. I want to show others that no matter how big their mistake is they are only one step away from choosing a better path, and that is where the last step comes in called, “redirection.”

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4. Living life with purpose

I know that if I had never gotten pregnant I would have kept living my life the same way. I would have never done anything with my life, and neither would my husband. Now because of my son Ivan, I have the desire to succeed and do more with my life, when before all I wanted was to have a good time. Now I am going through my second semester of school with only six more to go before I can become a sonographer. I am also super excited to be co-leading a life-changing small group with Church of the Highlands, and it’s amazing to see God working through people and through me. They say that when you teach you aren’t just teaching others you are also teaching yourself, and that is so true. My husband is currently in his last few weeks of AIT military training and is about to graduate his with Honors. And he just told me the other day that we will have the opportunity to travel to places I have always dreamt of going, but never in my life thought it would be a reality, but it’s true!

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I said all of this to say that it doesn’t matter how wrong your life has gone. Even if you take a wrong turn or two it does not matter, because as soon as you surrender your life to His plan. He will turn your life into more than you can possibly imagine.

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Jeremiah 29:11